well today is march 30th and man this year is going by so fast already! one more day and it will be april! where does the time go? I am at work, right now i had a free quiet mintute to post a bit. it was busy since i came into work at 3:30 this afternoon. while i was at home it was pretty quiet the way i like it...lol. my parents have been out of town since the 22nd of march woohoo!!! i have had the house to myself and i have enjoyed it a bunch lol. Today it is a nice sunny day in ny i think like 55 degrees and it is very windy and it is making it cooler. i like to send to some friends of mine and one of my groups a weekenight dinner recipe, tonight i sent chicken with 20 cloves of garlic from kraft.com and the weekenight dessert was chips ahoy cheesecake cookies which are fun to make and eat...lol i enjoy sending recipes to friends, it gives them i am sure a different idea on what to make and a good way to try something new...even my friend from london, laurie...( hi laurie, rosie, and petey and angel leons) i send her stuff and i make like a package up for her of the baked goods i made and i send to her because i know she enjoys it a ton, plus it is a treat for her because london has different things there then here in america...my goal is really to get to london this year! i want to see my friend laurie and really have a vacation by myself! I just love when laurie says " biscuts" when i tell her i made shortbread it is soo cute lol...well here it is shortbread and there it is biscuts lol. my other european friend gaily poo poo ( my nickname for her) she is from new zealand...i would love to take a vacation there one day maybe in the next year, also i love it if me and gail could go there together and she can show me all the places to go and not just the "touristy" places either lol, i love her accent too...i am sure when she is made oh boy that accent come flying out lol, lauries accent is cute too, i love an english accent! i have known laurie i think like 3 yrs or so i joined this cat group and she was a member of it and we started talking i believe and hit it off from there...laurie if your version of this is different please let me know lol, and i can talk to her about anything and she is always there to listen if i can ever get the time change right...lol. It is hard sometimes when i need to like vent or talk laurie is sleeping or at work it is 6 hrs different in london. but when i do see her online we will chat talk about what is going on in life for that day...or whatever is on our minds. i consider her a bff ( best friend forever) because she liked me for me and all my crazy things i do and my nurotic things i do as well. we have had our differences but we sometimes agree to disagree and leave it at that. i tell her all the time please retire so you can move to america and live in ny...it would be fun,fun,funner laurie is an older woman, it is weird i find that i can connect more with people older then me or my age...like gaily...lol she is the same age as me i am 8 months older then she is...she is a hoot i just love her, we have know eachother i think it will be a year now she joined the cat group i am a member of...gaily if my remembering is wrong i know you will let me know ! lol Not knowing anything about gail when you speak to her you would think she is american by the things she says and talks about, but i know she is from new zealand! her hubby is american and from california, and gail is a great gal i consider her a bff again i can talk to her easily and i get a take it as it is answer and she is honest with me...we can joke around etc we have fun. I am planning on making a trip to go to ks to visit her this year. laurie is a cat lover...aka"kittehlover" she had 2 cats...one went to the rainbow bridge on 2-14-09 " angel leons" he was a tabby cat boy and rosie is a "moggie" as they say in london, which means a black and white cat...or like a mutt cat...like here in america we have a mutt breed. I tell laurie all the time that your cat rosie is not a cat she is a human in a furry catsuit...lol because i sat that she does not act cat like...i made a card for rosie and i emailed it to laurie for her...since cat do not have email lol and she sat on lauries lap and saw the card and does a "meow" and jumps down that is her way of saying she likes it and even in pictures she is so regal and she has the cutest black spot on her nose it looks like her nose is not there but it is...she is a pretty cat, when i go to london and visit my friend laurie and her hubby pete and rosie i plan to give rosie and scritch on the nosey of hers lol. gail is another cat lover...she is a big catlover! gail is very talented, she likes taking pictures of her kittehs...which i affectionately call them the cabello kittehs...lol and she get them perfect and i have never seen a bad picture from her yet. she tells me since her cats were itty bitteh kittehs she had a camera in their face and they are used to it. she truly has a gift...that i push her on all the time to get into professional kitteh pictuere taking! she is also very crafty, she has made some things for her kids and friends etc and her kittehs are not normal either and i tell her all the time. gail has 4 kittehs...jag is a grey cat he is 2, then possum she is a calico tabby cat she will be 2 in april, and then there is dreamy huck he will be 2 in i think october! he is a chocolate point ragdoll...gail correct me if i am wrong lol and then there is the baby kitteh tang and she will be a yr soon and is a orangie "aka orangie" tabby cat with white on her as well. her cats like to play together and the snuggle together and they are not very cat like either...i laugh when i speak to gail that none of the cats i had do the things your cats or lauries cats do...what is it that you do? i would like to know maybe we can bottle it up and sell it...lol i will post poctures of the cabello kittehs later there is a picture on my blog wall of rosie and also there is a picture of tippys...that story iwill tell at a later time. well i am going to stop here for now. I just wanted to post a little bit more when i had a free second to blog! i also wanted to tell you abit about my life so far lol and my friends...i hope you enjoy what you are reading...more later!
p.s. i wished that one day i could be talented like gail is with her camera and her kittehs and her kids...i am trying right now to perfect trying to be a cook...chef in training lol ;o)
peace and hairgrease...see ya l8ter ;op
Monday, March 30, 2009
my real story about me...well the last 4 yrs and part of my whole life lol!
ok here is my story in the kinda short form. I have lived and grown up in ny all of my 36 almost 37 yrs of life next month my bday...remember Laurie and gaily...lol ;op
all of my life i have been overweight i would say since i was 9 or 10 years old. i was a skinny kid up until then and i guess i started to like food more, i have not figured out that question yet for myself.
for the next 10-20 yrs of my life i struggled with weight and i was on every diet know to man, women and children...lol
i was self conscious of myself and i would try to compensate for it by being funny so that it would not show that i was sad or being made fun of did not hurt me.
when i was in junior high school and high school i would say i was not picked on, but i always knew i was "different" because i was heavy, i had my group of friends, but what bothered me was that all the friends i had in elementary school and junior high school all went away. I am the same person then as i was in high school just a bit older and so what i was fat! I am and was still the fun and cool person to hang out it...i just can not stand clickes or groups , for instance of the jocks can not talk to the nerds, or the pretty popular girls can not talk to girls that are not pretty right away or who are fat...you know what i think of that...( grown words about to be typed) I think it is BULLSHIT!!!! I say this because who cares what other people think they are the ones that have no backbone and go with someone else just because they say so! come on now people!!!
now i am alot older and i have a facebook page i am finding alot of friends and people from my past that i have thought about and would love to see again, to catch up or rekindle a old friendship.
anyway ...i got off the subject...hehehe well like i said i was fat my whole life, i have 2 older brothers and i just got heavier and heavier and when i was 32 yrs old i was at my heaviest about 286 lbs and both of my brothers just had new babies and i had my rock bottom moment... i was like i want to roll around on the floor with my nieces and nephew, but right now i can not because i am so heavy.
i was tired of being sick and tired, everything i did from walking the hall at work to get to my office or going up stairs it was a job and a half, shelping all 286-296 ish lbs along and i was 32 yrs old and i had sickness of a 65 yr old i was on like 10 different pills. i had high blood pressure,diabetes, my asthma acted up when i was alot heavier, also my allergies kicked in full force too. i was a mess and i was too young to be going threw all of this, i went to my dr and i have been told my whole life you need to loose weight, well when i went to see my primary dr, it was for a check up i beleive and he said to me and my mom was in the room with me, is that you need to loose weight or in 10 yrs YOU will be DEAD! because all the co-mobilities i had. well after that a friend of mine was going threw surgery and i had been tossing around the idea of doing gastric bypass surgery, getting any and all info i could.
I went to see dr ren in Manhattan at NYU, and i saw her informational meeting and after all the info i had gotten i was not about to use her because she did not take my health insurance. since i worked in a hospital i did not want to use the dr that was at my job...since i saw these drs on a regular basis i did not want them to see me like that. after i came from dr rens information meeting i gave the dr that was doing the gastric bypass that was at my job, he recently left there and started his group at another local hospital. i went to his information meeting and got all the info and i felt he was the right dr for me, he answered any and all questions i had and still does til this day! he is the most caring dr i have ever known he reminds me of my father...lol there was a list of things i needed to do to get ready for the surgery and doing this list that the dr gave me it, to work on and that it makes sure i was really ready to do this. i was ready my parents did not want me to have the bypass and they wanted me to to the lap band...
my take on it was this...i had my "rock bottom" moment when i just got tired of being sick and tired and trapped in my own body, since i choose to do the surgery i am going full speed ahead! i am ready for any and all of what would happen i was not scared at all. so jan 3rd of 2005 at st catherines hospital, in smithtown ny i had gastric bypass surgery...( also know as wls) and i lost about 120 lbs...i was about 286 i think when i had my surgery i was about 296! i was a size 30-32 before and on 10 plus meds and after surgery i was off of all of them except for a few last one...the allergies were bugging me. i got down to the weight of 165 lbs and then i had another surgery i had a tummy tuck in july of 2006 and remove the loose skin from my stomach...i had gotten up to 180 ish because i was so bloated and al the stuff they fill you up with in surgery and then lost 15 lbs in under 10 days...lol i like that kind of diet lol and i was able to wear a 2 piece bikini for the first time in my life...i finally felt that the "real" me was finally coming out...when i was about 165 i was about a size 8-or 10 ish and i could fit in skinny clothes and not have to got to the plus sizes and i can try and buy right off the rack and not have to get anything altered...i am petite as well and short! but it was such a feeling it is hard to describe...but i felt like te real me that was hiding all of those yrs under all that i had has finally come out and i can be myself! I go t threw ups and downs after this happen i had alot of family stuff happen and my grandma past away and about a yr and a half after that my other grandmother that lived with me and my parents house passed away and recently my uncle, so i got into a rut and was not exercising as much so about a year and a half ago in aug i choose to not be stuck here and i went back to the gym and i got a trainer...after about a mo it did not work out with him, and i got another trainer and she is great she owns the gym and now is a great friend, she is a hoot i love her and i started working with her and within i think less then yr or about a yr i lost like 60 lbs i was down to 142 lbs and lost over 6 inches from my body. and now i would say i am in kinda a rut i was very sick in dec 2008 with a bad cold and i was unable to workout and i was working on no sleep wither, my whole sleep pattern was not healthy either. what i did was after having a really bad sleep pattern in the beginning of march i choose to force myself to change my sleep pattern and force myself to go to sleep earlier! I work at night til midnight and drive an hr to get home so i would be wound up. But i say that did a world of difference! i have more energy and i can function as a normal person again and it has been hard and a slow process but i did put on a few lbs and i am now working hard again to get my routine back i was working out before 5-6 days a week and now or before i was sick in dec i was doing 4 days a week since i was in better shape i could get away with going only four days and now it is once a week. I also train one day a week with my trainer...i also have exercising equipment at home and i would use that. but i got into a little bit of a "rut" lol like we all do sometimes and i am getting back in the swing of things and i will be able to loose the weight again. what i find funny is that i loved food before but in a different way...i wanted any and all the more the better that i can get in my mouth lol. now i love food in a totally different way, it is weird i love food as to cooking and making recipes and doing it in a healthier way, also when i look at food i eat with my eyes first and that gets me going and i want to create " great things with food" when i am not working or working out at the gym i am cooking and baking, i just love and enjoy it so much and i love trying new things and recipes and i try to challenge myself when i am cooking...to see if i can try and do the recipe and when it comes out good, it makes me happy to be able to cook for my family and friends and they enjoy it all everytimes i am cooking. cooking is like therapy or meditation kinda , when i am in the zone i am focused! I am into getting healthier and living a healthier lifestyle and cooking healthier and different things to learn about it and try new food i would not before is fun to me. what i love the most is getting a smile on the the face of someone who has tasted my food.
in my future plans...i hope to one day go to culinary school and for the fall i am trying to get into school to get my lic to be a personal trainer , i enjoy working out and i get such a high from that and i feel so much better afterwards.
i have often been asked by friends for help whether it be food or a recipe , as well an idea for a party as to what to cook or help with their health and lifestyle and loosing weight and food itself. I have been there done that and i could help alot of people with this blog and in general, which is what i want, but right now i am going to BED! I think i have typed enough and i am doozing here at the computer i will post again tomorrow!
p.s. i will say this last thing have the gatric bypass surgery was the "BEST THING " i ever did and if i had to do again i would, i had the best drs, in my circle!
peace and hairgrease...see ya l8ter ;op
all of my life i have been overweight i would say since i was 9 or 10 years old. i was a skinny kid up until then and i guess i started to like food more, i have not figured out that question yet for myself.
for the next 10-20 yrs of my life i struggled with weight and i was on every diet know to man, women and children...lol
i was self conscious of myself and i would try to compensate for it by being funny so that it would not show that i was sad or being made fun of did not hurt me.
when i was in junior high school and high school i would say i was not picked on, but i always knew i was "different" because i was heavy, i had my group of friends, but what bothered me was that all the friends i had in elementary school and junior high school all went away. I am the same person then as i was in high school just a bit older and so what i was fat! I am and was still the fun and cool person to hang out it...i just can not stand clickes or groups , for instance of the jocks can not talk to the nerds, or the pretty popular girls can not talk to girls that are not pretty right away or who are fat...you know what i think of that...( grown words about to be typed) I think it is BULLSHIT!!!! I say this because who cares what other people think they are the ones that have no backbone and go with someone else just because they say so! come on now people!!!
now i am alot older and i have a facebook page i am finding alot of friends and people from my past that i have thought about and would love to see again, to catch up or rekindle a old friendship.
anyway ...i got off the subject...hehehe well like i said i was fat my whole life, i have 2 older brothers and i just got heavier and heavier and when i was 32 yrs old i was at my heaviest about 286 lbs and both of my brothers just had new babies and i had my rock bottom moment... i was like i want to roll around on the floor with my nieces and nephew, but right now i can not because i am so heavy.
i was tired of being sick and tired, everything i did from walking the hall at work to get to my office or going up stairs it was a job and a half, shelping all 286-296 ish lbs along and i was 32 yrs old and i had sickness of a 65 yr old i was on like 10 different pills. i had high blood pressure,diabetes, my asthma acted up when i was alot heavier, also my allergies kicked in full force too. i was a mess and i was too young to be going threw all of this, i went to my dr and i have been told my whole life you need to loose weight, well when i went to see my primary dr, it was for a check up i beleive and he said to me and my mom was in the room with me, is that you need to loose weight or in 10 yrs YOU will be DEAD! because all the co-mobilities i had. well after that a friend of mine was going threw surgery and i had been tossing around the idea of doing gastric bypass surgery, getting any and all info i could.
I went to see dr ren in Manhattan at NYU, and i saw her informational meeting and after all the info i had gotten i was not about to use her because she did not take my health insurance. since i worked in a hospital i did not want to use the dr that was at my job...since i saw these drs on a regular basis i did not want them to see me like that. after i came from dr rens information meeting i gave the dr that was doing the gastric bypass that was at my job, he recently left there and started his group at another local hospital. i went to his information meeting and got all the info and i felt he was the right dr for me, he answered any and all questions i had and still does til this day! he is the most caring dr i have ever known he reminds me of my father...lol there was a list of things i needed to do to get ready for the surgery and doing this list that the dr gave me it, to work on and that it makes sure i was really ready to do this. i was ready my parents did not want me to have the bypass and they wanted me to to the lap band...
my take on it was this...i had my "rock bottom" moment when i just got tired of being sick and tired and trapped in my own body, since i choose to do the surgery i am going full speed ahead! i am ready for any and all of what would happen i was not scared at all. so jan 3rd of 2005 at st catherines hospital, in smithtown ny i had gastric bypass surgery...( also know as wls) and i lost about 120 lbs...i was about 286 i think when i had my surgery i was about 296! i was a size 30-32 before and on 10 plus meds and after surgery i was off of all of them except for a few last one...the allergies were bugging me. i got down to the weight of 165 lbs and then i had another surgery i had a tummy tuck in july of 2006 and remove the loose skin from my stomach...i had gotten up to 180 ish because i was so bloated and al the stuff they fill you up with in surgery and then lost 15 lbs in under 10 days...lol i like that kind of diet lol and i was able to wear a 2 piece bikini for the first time in my life...i finally felt that the "real" me was finally coming out...when i was about 165 i was about a size 8-or 10 ish and i could fit in skinny clothes and not have to got to the plus sizes and i can try and buy right off the rack and not have to get anything altered...i am petite as well and short! but it was such a feeling it is hard to describe...but i felt like te real me that was hiding all of those yrs under all that i had has finally come out and i can be myself! I go t threw ups and downs after this happen i had alot of family stuff happen and my grandma past away and about a yr and a half after that my other grandmother that lived with me and my parents house passed away and recently my uncle, so i got into a rut and was not exercising as much so about a year and a half ago in aug i choose to not be stuck here and i went back to the gym and i got a trainer...after about a mo it did not work out with him, and i got another trainer and she is great she owns the gym and now is a great friend, she is a hoot i love her and i started working with her and within i think less then yr or about a yr i lost like 60 lbs i was down to 142 lbs and lost over 6 inches from my body. and now i would say i am in kinda a rut i was very sick in dec 2008 with a bad cold and i was unable to workout and i was working on no sleep wither, my whole sleep pattern was not healthy either. what i did was after having a really bad sleep pattern in the beginning of march i choose to force myself to change my sleep pattern and force myself to go to sleep earlier! I work at night til midnight and drive an hr to get home so i would be wound up. But i say that did a world of difference! i have more energy and i can function as a normal person again and it has been hard and a slow process but i did put on a few lbs and i am now working hard again to get my routine back i was working out before 5-6 days a week and now or before i was sick in dec i was doing 4 days a week since i was in better shape i could get away with going only four days and now it is once a week. I also train one day a week with my trainer...i also have exercising equipment at home and i would use that. but i got into a little bit of a "rut" lol like we all do sometimes and i am getting back in the swing of things and i will be able to loose the weight again. what i find funny is that i loved food before but in a different way...i wanted any and all the more the better that i can get in my mouth lol. now i love food in a totally different way, it is weird i love food as to cooking and making recipes and doing it in a healthier way, also when i look at food i eat with my eyes first and that gets me going and i want to create " great things with food" when i am not working or working out at the gym i am cooking and baking, i just love and enjoy it so much and i love trying new things and recipes and i try to challenge myself when i am cooking...to see if i can try and do the recipe and when it comes out good, it makes me happy to be able to cook for my family and friends and they enjoy it all everytimes i am cooking. cooking is like therapy or meditation kinda , when i am in the zone i am focused! I am into getting healthier and living a healthier lifestyle and cooking healthier and different things to learn about it and try new food i would not before is fun to me. what i love the most is getting a smile on the the face of someone who has tasted my food.
in my future plans...i hope to one day go to culinary school and for the fall i am trying to get into school to get my lic to be a personal trainer , i enjoy working out and i get such a high from that and i feel so much better afterwards.
i have often been asked by friends for help whether it be food or a recipe , as well an idea for a party as to what to cook or help with their health and lifestyle and loosing weight and food itself. I have been there done that and i could help alot of people with this blog and in general, which is what i want, but right now i am going to BED! I think i have typed enough and i am doozing here at the computer i will post again tomorrow!
p.s. i will say this last thing have the gatric bypass surgery was the "BEST THING " i ever did and if i had to do again i would, i had the best drs, in my circle!
peace and hairgrease...see ya l8ter ;op
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